Edging During Masturbation

Someone posted a comment on my last blog entry, asking why a Domme who can have multiple orgasms would choose to edge herself during masturbation. As happens so often when I start to respond to someone's question, it becomes a post unto itself.

I am capable of having quite a few orgasms in any given day. My orgasms, however, differ quite a bit in intensity and where I feel them. For example, I can bring myself to a quick orgasm in just a couple minutes through rubbing or tapping my clit. These orgasms are generally not very intense, but satisfy my needs if I only have a few minutes.

On other other hand, I can (and often do) edge myself during masturbation. Riding that orgasmic precipice for quite some time is both mentally and sexually arousing. I love that I have full control over my orgasm, and when I ultimately do climax this way the orgasms are forceful and extreme. Even as I am on the edge, though, I am feeling intense pleasure that goes beyond just a build-up of sexual tension. My muscles lock, I moan, I feel waves of pleasure emanating through not just my pelvis but my entire body. The orgasm that follows is concentrated, but ultimately is just the icing on the cake.

I hope this helps answer your question!

Taking My Bitch

j was bent over the bed with his panties around his thighs, a vision that took my breath away. It had been a weekend of torture for j. I had been too busy with my job to deal with his weeks of transgressions but as things settled down at work, they heated up at home. The night before I had put him over my knee and spanked his ass until it was bright red. I had little compassion for his whimpering, and kept reminding him that he was here to serve me. Then I had him hand wash all the floors in the house naked, except for a pair of panties. Since he washed the floor on his hands and knees, I had an excellent view. Seeing him like that got me incredibly aroused.

Now here he was, ass in the air, practically begging to be taken. I walked around the bed and slapped him several times in the face with my Feeldoe. I ordered him to suck it. "Get it wet, bitch.... it's going to be the only lube you get!" He sucked the cock, licking and slurping on it as I moved it in and out of his mouth. After taunting him this way for a few minutes, I was ready to take him.

I placed the tip of my cock against him, slowly entering him. Normally I put the head in quickly and allow him time to get used to the sensation before continuing on, but this time I watched as he gradually opened up to take in the head of my cock. He cried out a bit in pain, but I just laughed at him. As my cock entered him deeper, I could feel the pressure of the Feeldoe inside of me, and finally, all the way in, I gasped as it rubbed against my clit.

It wasn't long before I felt j's body pushing back towards me, wanting more and more of my cock inside of him. "You want it, don't you, bitch?," I asked. "Oh yes Ma'am, " he cried. I gave it to him, taking him hard and fast, watching my cock slide in and out of him.

I could feel my own juices dripping down my thighs and despite great control of my pelvic muscles it was getting tough to hold the bulb of the Feeldoe inside as I got wetter. I took it out of me told j to get on his back. I know this disappointed him a bit as he was enjoying rubbing his cock against the bed as I took him. Still, he was eager to please me and had his tongue out of his mouth, eager to lick me, as I lowered myself down on his face.

I rode his face with abandon, knowing his entire head was probably getting wet. I felt my climax building and grinded my pussy against his face. My hips began bucking and j struggled to keep his tongue aligned with my pussy as I came on his face. I moaned and screamed for what had to be a couple minutes- the orgasm just kept on coming!

As my climax was finally receding, I moved my body lower against j. "You wanna put your cock inside me? You wanna cum inside my pussy, bitch?"

"Only if it pleases you, Ma'am." he responded, but I knew he was eager for release.

"Too bad, maybe next time," I said with a grin, as I headed off to the shower.

* To those followers who are waiting to here what happened on my weekend with two submissives, I will be posting the next 'installment' soon. I want to give j some time to catch up with posting about it on his blog.

Anorgasmic Ejaculation

Anorgasmic ejaculation... the name sounds pretty clinical, but even less clinical than the other name for it, ejaculatory anhedonia. Basically, anorgasmic ejaculation is ejaculating without any feelings of release or pleasure. This is something that I discovered when playing with j a few months ago. I love teasing him, taking him right to the brink of orgasm, then waiting for him to calm down a bit before doing it again. Occasionally, when I do this with him, he will ejaculate without orgasm.

The whole thing is rather anti-climactic (pardon the pun!), with the semen leaking out of his penis with very little force. While it generally is the same amount of semen as when he has an orgasm, it takes at least thirty seconds to slowly leak out. j maintains an erection even after the ejaculation, and is left drained but without release.

The first time this happened, I was quite unhappy with j. I had not given him permission for release, and felt angry that he could not control his body. After reading more about anorgasmic ejaculation, it has become a goal of mine. I enjoy watching him cum, but I feel that an orgasm should be a rare treat for him. Now I can have my cake and eat it too!

Which brings me to Sunday morning... j and I were snuggling in bed, enjoying each other's bodies. I instructed him to go get me some rope. I laid him on his back and wrapped the rope several times around his scrotum and penis, pulling it taut, and then several more times around his penis alone, tying it off at the top. I teased him quite a bit this way, slapping his balls- occasionally quite hard. I rubbed the head of his penis, and alternated between using a vibrator on myself and touching it to his cock. It seemed that each time I allowed him a bit of stimulation he made it to the brink of orgasm in just a few seconds. After playing for a while in this way (and having a couple great orgasms myself), he ejaculated without orgasm. It was rather erotic, watching the cum drain from his penis, yet his body felt no release.

A final note- when I allow j to have an orgasm, he almost immediately becomes less attentive to my needs. When he ejaculates without orgasm, he is even more attentive. It seems it is the ultimate tease and denial- so close that his biological functions took over, with no pleasure for him!

Furtive Fumblings in the Bedroom

Sex with children in the house reminds me of those times, as a teenager, that I would have a boyfriend over. We would both be so hot for each other, but with parents within earshot had to keep our oohs, ahs and moans to a minimum. I remember at times the excitement and daring of it all seemed to intensify things for me. Now, as an adult with kids in the house, it does nothing but damper the sensations!

Every other weekend we go from one to four children in the house. Our daughter who lives with us full-time is a sound sleeper, and is extremely independent. She frequently gets up in the morning and does her own thing for a while. Our other three children...not so much! They fill the house with doors closing, running, fussing at each other, giggling and laughing, making crazy noises (okay, it's not nearly as bad as I am making it out to be, but you get the idea). Also, they frequently feel the need to share things with us, knocking on the door at the most inopportune times!

I woke a little earlier than usual this morning. The sun was shining in through the blinds, and I felt rejuvenated after an excellent sleep. I pulled back the covers so I could look at j's naked body (I require him to sleep naked). he looked sexy and yet vulnerable. his already small-ish manhood shriveled up even further than usual. I stroked him and he began to wake up, feeling my fingers grasping his cock. Within seconds he was hard and moaning softly. I asked him how long it had been since he had last cum. "I don't know...at least a week, maybe two." He continued to moan, and I became quite aroused just watching his cock grow under my touch.

I asked for my vibrator and began to rub it against myself, instructing him to touch himself so I could watch. Wisely, he went and locked the door at this point, then returned and kneeled beside my head so I had an excellent view. I love watching him stroke his (my) cock. It did not take me long at all to reach orgasm myself, and then I began using the vibrator, my beloved Magic Wand, on him. I teased his cock for a while, watching him get close to orgasm, then pulling away. I did this several times, and at the last time his moans continued after I pulled away, and cum flowed out of his cock. According to j, he came but did not orgasm, and while I am not arguing with the biological possibilities of this happening, in my book they are one in the same. j has a problem with cumming prematurely, and I felt disappointed that he could not control himself. After all, I had not teased him much at all this morning.

I excused him to go clean himself up, and when he returned to bed I slapped his balls several times...hard. Hard enough that he closed his legs when I reach back between then to slap him again. I scolded him for this and slapped him a few more times. Then I began stroking his cock again, getting him rock hard very quickly. Within moments he was asking me if he could cum. I, of course, refused to let him and instead slapped his balls some more. Each time it would elicit gasps of pain and his body would arch up to escape my hand. Then I would go back to stroking. This continued for some time. I could have gone on even longer except.....

* knock-knock-knock *
* knock-knock-knock *
"Mom, somebody broke my light-up toy."
UGH! Despite being quiet, the children were up and needing attention. Seems like they can sense whenever we are being intimate!

Do not get me wrong, I really love my children. They are the best things that have ever happened to me and I treasure each of them. I am so thankful that I have these years to enjoy with them, to watch them grown and develop into unique individuals, each with their own gifts. But every once in a while I fantasize about what it will be like when they are grown and on their own and the house is quiet again. Happy Mother's Day!

My Scepter is a Hitachi Magic Wand

The Hitachi Magic Wand is, I believe, God's gift to women! It is by far my favorite vibrator, and the fact that it could pass (and does work) as a muscle massager as well leaves me free to keep it plugged in and placed near the head of my bed. For years it has brought me solitary pleasure, and on occasion I have allowed j to use it on me. I generally prefer he not, since I believe he should work for my orgasms, and the Magic Wand makes it too easy for him!

Recently I have begun incorporating the Magic Wand into our tease and denial sessions. This morning, for instance, I allowed j to touch my pussy. He relished this opportunity and brought me to two nice orgasms. Then I asked for my Magic Wand. I used it on my pussy and he asked permission to touch and suck my nipples as he often does on such occasions. The Magic Wand is so powerful that I generally push it against the lips of my pussy and leave it in place, since when I move it I climax immediately (yes, it IS that powerful). When I achieved my "magical" orgasm, I began using the wand on his cock. j is incredibly sensitive, so within seconds he is moaning that he is close to cumming. I allow him a break of just a few moments before I move the magic wand over his cock some more. This morning I did this about a dozen times, leaving him moaning with hips thrusting, hoping that I would let him climax. I, of course, did not allow this!