Fantasizing

A nasty cold has me home in bed. Normally this would put my feelings of Dominance on ice, but today it seems to have done the opposite. Despite feeling icky, my mind has been going a mile a minute, fantasizing about j. My dreams have centered around it as well.

The fantasy du jour is this: j and I are in a room full of people. While they are conversing softly and drinking, all of their eyes are on me. I am dressed in a black leather bra and black leather pants, and wearing black high heels. j is shaved completely, including his head, and is wearing pair of gray sheer panties. (No coincidence that he was wearing these this morning as I drifted off to sleep, I am sure!)

I sit down on a stool and j lays across my lap. I lower his pants and begin spanking him, lightly at first and then harder. I can feel his cock harden against my legs and I alternate spanking and rubbing his ass. The more I spank him, the quieter those around us get until the room is silent except for the sound of my hand coming down on him. The sound seems to reverberate, and his body begins to quiver. I feel his member leaking pre-cum on my leg, and he desperately tries to create some friction against his cock by moving his body around. I laugh at his desperation, and with all my strength I kick his body to the floor.

he lays on the floor, a puddle of a man, needing to cum and yet filled with the desire to please. I look at one of the men who has been watching us. his eyes on transfixed on me, and I motion to him to come my way. he stands before me and then kneels upon my command.

*** to be continued ***

Enjoying My Feet

I find my feet to be one of the most attractive parts of my body. I have always had strong, flexible feet and ankles. I think nothing of picking up things I drop with my toes. But until we began exploring D/s some five-ish years ago, I did not view them as part of my sexual being.

I receive a lot of pleasure from my feet. j massages them nightly, and has found a point on the sole of my feet that is very erotic. When he rubs his thumb in this area I get very aroused. Of course, there is something truly intoxicating about having a man lick and kiss my feet, belittling himself before me.

I have begun to realize that I enjoy the power my feet bring me. I like hearing the sound of my high heels when I walk around, or the glances of others when they see my shoes. Sure, my tennis shoes may be more comfortable, but my heels are the ultimate aphrodisiac- for me and for those around me!

Unexpected Post-Shower Fun

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Domination Goes Mainstream

I was listening to a football game in the car the other day when I heard a commercial that caught my attention. The commercial was for the Fox cartoon lineup (Simpsons, Family Guy, etc). It began with a woman speaking in a sultry voice saying, "I know you want to be dominated." She continues, "It feels so good to submit." At the end of the conversation, the voice says something about the safe word being animation (I think that is what it was, but I was so shocked by this commercial, I may have heard the wrong safe word!)

I love when I hear things like this. I like that others are becoming familiar with BDSM. Even though many of the references to BDSM are silly or over the top, I do think that it increases awareness and acceptance of people who love differently, as we do. While considering this post, I came across a great website, Welcome to Master Kelly.com, which gives examples of tv references to BDSM presently as well as historically. It is an impressive list, and while I was aware of some of the references, quite a few were new to me. He breaks the list up by decades, going back as far as the 60's! Definitely worth checking out!

A Little More Satisfaction

Oddly enough, j and I rarely have sexual intercourse. There are many reasons for this, one of which is that I keep j so on the edge sexually that intercourse is generally over very quickly. Also, I like playing with j, teasing him, tempting him and I have more control when he is not inside of me.

Nonetheless, every now and then I just want to fuck. I had been teasing j for days through texts and little comments, as well as flashing him on occasion. I knew that had I allowed him inside of me, it would end quickly. Fortunately, we have some prescription numbing cream that is very effective in allowing our lovemaking to be quite prolonged.

I had j lick me for quite a long time, and each time I came it seemed that the orgasm was stronger than the previous one. But even though I was immensely enjoying his tongue, I really wanted to fuck! And fuck we did! With the help of the numbing cream, he felt very little, and I went to town on him. I rode him for a long time, and came so hard I scraped my fingernails down his chest, drawing a bit of blood. It was good, it was great, it was freaking mindblowing!

When we finished (after several position changes), we snuggled for a while, dozing in each other's arms. And while it may not have been our typical D/s sex, it was powerful and loving.

It was a wonderful release, and quite refreshing at the end of a long weekend.

All Dressed Up and Nowhere To Go

I'm a pretty understanding person. I understand that sometimes things happen beyond our control. But it is difficult to be understanding when things like this happen... a lot.

We were all set to have dinner with Domina and anthony tonight. By all set, I mean that j and I had taken our daughter to her grandmother's house for the weekend (3 hours away), j had gotten everything for dinner together, we had arranged to have our dogs elsewhere for the evening, the house had been picked up. j had texted and called anthony around noon and did not get a response. Around 2 pm, he got a phone call from anthony saying that he and Domina would not be coming. Something had come up with his kids, and he would not be able to make it.

I was in the bedroom, getting ready, when j came in. He said to me, "You know, we need to find new friends. D and a will not be coming tonight." He went on to explain that a had called, and that something was going on with his soon-to-be ex-wife and kids.

This should not have come as a surprise to me. As you may remember, two weekends ago, right in the middle of a great dinner, Domina and anthony had to leave unexpectedly when he had to go pick up his daughter. j and I were quite disappointed, but at the same time understanding. We have both been divorced, and we have kids. We know that sometimes things come up.

It was their idea to get together this weekend to try things again. It was a great idea- it required a little finagling on our part to make arrangements for our daughter, but we felt that their company was worth it.

Right now I don't know what to say. It's mid-afternoon, and we live in a rural area so it's not like we can pick up and go to a nice dinner or a movie and make the best of a bad situation. Yes, we could be intimate, but as angry as I am right now I might take it out on j.

This whole thing makes me sad. I am, and have always been, a giving person. I think nothing of being their for my friends when they need me, and when Domina and anthony were having a rough time, I did everything I could to help them both. I talked/emailed/texted Domina for hours on end. I met with both of them and tried to help them reconcile.

Even after it seemed their relationship was drifting back towards "Vanillaville," I wanted to remain friends with Domina. As I have posted before, she is the type of person I would like to be friends with even if we did not share the common bond of being Dommes. The fact that we do is the icing on the cake.

j and I were both excited when it seemed that the D/s passion was back between them. We were happy for them, and happy for ourselves as well, since we had first met as a D/s couple seeking another D/s couple for friendship. And while part of me wants to just let the disappointment go and move on, I do not know if I can.

To their credit, they did try to shift things around to come out for a short time. But it seemed pointless, since they would be driving quite a bit for a short amount of time here, and really the offer to do that only came up after I got upset about them cancelling on us.

So here I am, dressed up and looking quite hot, and feeling not too unlike how I did two weeks ago when they left in the midst of a fantastic dinner to attend to a crisis. I really like both of them, j and I love spending time with them, but if their lives are in so much turmoil that they cannot keep their plans (or at least give a reasonable amount of notice), I am not sure that it is beneficial to continue on.

I Love Me

I love being a woman.
I love that I look sexy in heels.
I love putting on lipstick every morning.
I love spending time with my children.
I love playing Rock Band and Guitar Hero.
I love spanking my submissive.
I love taking a bubble bath.
I love the smell outside after it rains.
I love having my pussy licked.
I love watching silly cartoons.
I love laughing.
I love putting on warm clothes after I have been swimming
I love catching up with old friends.
I love my family.
I love taking j to the brink, and then not letting him get off.
I love going to the beach.
I love curling up on the couch.
I love being in control.
I love the smell of pumpkin pie.
I love wearing a strap-on.
I love my job.
I love playing games with my kids.
I love masturbating.
I love tickling j.
I love going on vacation.
I love a good glass of wine.
I love torturing j's balls.
I love me.