Back for What Promises to be an Exciting Summer

As is so often the case in D/s marriages, there are ebbs and flows with the levels of Dominance and submission. In our marriage, this happens when 'life' gets in the way. I have been busy at work, broke my thumb and cracked my wrist, j has been working hard to line up a better job, and our kids have had their miscellaneous things going on. Nonetheless, the summer promises to be relaxing and I hope to have much more time to enjoy my wonderful submissive, as well as more time to blog.

Despite our occasional hiatuses (is that a word?) from the lifestyle, j does his best to maintain a constant level of submission. He wears his anklets and panties all the time. He frequently gives me pedicures and massages my feet, he makes me breakfast whenever we are home, and he generally maintains his thoughtful attitude. I like this level of continuity- it gives me a constant feeling that I am his Queen, and at the same time I don't feel the need to be overtly Dominant if I am not in the mood.

We had a few days where he had the day off while I was working. Each and every day, when I returned home, he greeted me wearing a black leather jock strap, his training collar and anklets. It is incredibly arousing for me to know that he 'slaves' away at home while I am out.

I'm happy to be back, feeling horny and Dominant as can be, and wanting to share it with you all. Be looking for some great posts soon!

Under Pressure

Alas, My househusband is no longer! Several weeks ago he began his new job. Two weeks went far too fast, although I feel blessed that in this economy he was able to find a job so quickly. His commute is well over an hour (each way), so morning duties that usually fell on his shoulders now rest neatly on mine. Eh, I'm up for the challenge.

My post today is only slightly D/s-related, so for my readers who come here for the juicy details... fair warning. I had a conversation with a co-worker recently about working under pressure. It was just a few words back and forth, but it was one of those exchanges that has stayed in my mind, and I have found myself reflecting upon it. After hearing that I was taking on additional responsibilities (with regards to work), she said something to the effect of, "You are just like me. You take on a lot because you know you work best under pressure." There is a lot of truth in that statement. I DO take on a lot, I DO work best when I am challenged and pressed a bit.

On a similar note, j and I were both admiring a girl we saw recently. She was in the marines, and dressed in her uniform. She sat tall in her chair, not even resting against the back. We were in an office for about thirty minutes, and she never fidgeted or looked around. She was focused, well-dressed, her hair and makeup were well-done. j commented (as he has before) that he wishes he had been in the military, that he had developed that sense of discipline. We joked about my becoming his drill sergeant- and while it was funny at the time, I could definitely see it being beneficial for us both. He has been slacking a lot lately, due partly to his own laziness and partly to my lack of desire (being overwhelmed with work). I would love to have a submissive who is dedicated and performs tasks without being asked, but j is not one of those subs. I accept that, but I do believe he needs an ass kicking every now and then!

New Gadget on the Blog

At my request, j has added meebo to My blog. It will allow Me to chat with you, My readers. If you see Me online, say hi!

House-husband in the Making

So many things have happened since my last post! Due to the poor economy, we have decided to close our business. Financially, we were taking a loss each month, and even though we have put a lot of our money into it, it is time to get out. Fortunately, I work outside of the business, and my income is enough to support our family, although it will mean living on a very tight budget until my husband gets a job. I am confident that he can, although it might take a while.

A few days ago, he started referring to himself as a house-husband. At first, I was a little taken aback by this, but now I am beginning to embrace it. I like the idea of him spending his days caring for our daughter, the house, and meeting My needs. While initially through the stress of closing the business my Dominance had waned, I feel it was returned, as strong as it ever was.

One of the great things about having a submissive around all the time is knowing that my needs (whatever they may be) will be met at a moment's notice. This morning, for instance, as he got out of the shower, I ordered j to lick Me. He moaned a bit as he got between my legs and began lapping away at my pussy. I became so wet, and enjoyed grinding myself against his face as he licked me, ensuring that entire face was covered in my juices.

I squeezed and slapped his balls, and rubbed his cock periodically. He was so aroused that he could take very little before he pulled away from me (his sign that he is close to the edge). In fact, when he did ultimately climax, I was not even touching him.

I plan on giving him a list of tasks I expect him to complete each day. Amidst the chores, I will be sure to intermingle different tasks put in for my pleasure, such as wearing clothespins on his nipples, writing a post for his blog, making a sexy video for me, or putting in a butt plug before going about his other chores. The ideas abound!

In the midst of all these transitions, I have been fantasizing quite a bit. My developing friendship with another submissive has caused me to fantasize about having j and him together, both serving Me simultaneously. I'll be sure to post that fantasy soon... as it is VERY hot!!

Feeldoe Revisited

We have had a Feeldoe for a couple of years, but have only used it about a half dozen times. Although I really love the feeling of the Feeldoe inside me as I penetrate j, it has proven difficult to control and often feels like it might slide out of me. For those reasons, I generally prefer to use a traditional strap-on. But- the Feeldoe is so damn sexy! Yesterday, I decided to give it another try.

I had been teasing j for a couple of days, telling him that I was going to be inside him soon, grabbing his ass. I love taunting him like this...letting him know what is coming, but not when.

I began by telling j to take off his clothes and get out some lube. I instructed him to lube up his ass, and finger it for a few minutes. I simply sat back and watched, enjoying the view as he moved his body about, trying to get deeper penetration. I then allowed him to penetrate himself with a dildo. After a couple of minutes he had it inserted all the way, and I knew I was just moments away from being inside of him.

Instead of the usual strap-on, I pulled out the Feeldoe. I think part of the reason it worked so well this time was that I used a very thin layer of lube. I put the bulb into my wet pussy, and stroked my new cock. It is a beautiful royal blue color, and while obviously not realistic, it is sexy nonetheless. j laid on his back on the bed, pulling his knees to his chest. I slowly inserted my cock into his asshole, and began fucking him in earnest. In and out I went, over and over. I felt the Feeldoe deep inside me as I thrusted deeper into him. I stroked his cock as I plunged mine deeper into him.

The feeling was very intense, and this time I had no sensation of the Feeldoe coming out from inside of me. We ended up making love later on in the day. Both experiences were wonderful, and a great way to spend part of the day.

Home Alone

A good friend of ours offered to keep our daughter overnight tonight. I decided we should take advantage of our child-free time by staying home. j changed into his attire that he wears when we are alone- consisting of his anklets (which he always wears) and his training collar. He also wore a black leather jock strap (mmmm!!).

It ended up being an evening of intense D/s fun as well as relaxation, which is a great mix! I wanted j to take a few pictures of me, which he did. One may be making it onto my profile soon. We had a great dinner, and had a nice time just sitting together talking. I love when j is mostly naked/in his training collar for me. I find myself touching him a lot- pinching his nipples, grabbing his cock, rubbing up against him, feeling his ass.

I wanted to take advantage of our night alone for more than just relaxation. I brought j into the bedroom and instructed him to lay on the middle of the bed. I strapped his wrists to both ends of the headboard, and then secured his ankles together at the end of the bed. I love knowing that he is helpless as I have my fun with him. And, the make him even more helpless, I put a blindfold on him. I started teasing him verbally, asking if he thought he deserved to taste me, if he thought he was worthy of licking me. I put my fingers in his mouth and made him suck them. I then mounted his face and began to grind my pussy against his mouth. Being on top of his face gives me a great amount of control as to where he is licking and sucking, and I used that to my advantage, moving back and forth until I was over the edge.

But I wasn't done with him yet. I wanted to try out the in and out penis gag/dildo that he had gotten me a few months ago from Stockroom. I had him suck on the penis gag, as I pushed it in and out of his mouth. I got very wet watching him suck that little cock, and soon wanted a cock of my own! I removed the gag from his mouth and began to use the dildo on my pussy. I was amazed by how big it felt inside of me. As he laid on the bed restrained and blindfolded, I pounded the dildo in and out of me. I made sure that he could hear the sounds of it sliding in and out, and of course my moans as well.

After a nice climax from the dildo, I pulled it out of me and strapped it around his head. He began sucking on the gag in earnest, and I must say that he looked adorable with a big cock protruding from his mouth. I climbed on top and took the cock deep inside me, lifting and lowering my body to take its length. j began thrusting upwards with his head, making the fucking even more intense. I went from soft moans, to loud moans, to screams of ecstasy. The feeling was unbelievable!

Throughout all of this fun, j had remained erect. I decided we would make a video for his blog. Recently we decided to start a "Will It Fuck" video segment, where I give him various items I want him to try to fuck. Tonight's video was j fucking a cucumber. I really got off on instructing him to kiss 'her', lick 'her', taste 'her' and finally fuck 'her'. He reached orgasm very quickly, no doubt due to all the stimulation he received beforehand as I rode his face!

On an unrelated note, I spent a couple more hours chatting with my new online submissive. I am enjoying getting to know him. Chatting with him makes me laugh and yet turns me on at the same time.