Back and Better Than Ever

My eyes close and the images come to me... j riding My strap-on, the expression on his face as he sees Me kiss another man, his crimson ass after a punishment, piles of toys and rope on the floor after a night of passion. Even after months of a D/s hiatus these scenes flash back as if they were just last night. The more I reflect upon them the greater the desire to have these things back in My life.

The past year has been jam-packed with major life changes for us. They have all been positive, wonderful things but have sucked up much of our energy. We had a couple months where even vanilla sex was virtually non-existent. At the end of the day we simply did not have any energy left. Slowly things settled down and the level of intimacy began to increase. My mind began to turn towards Dominance and submission.

Just opening the door to those thoughts is enough to get my mind racing and my body craving his submission. And I will have it. Soon he will be begging for my touch and moaning with desire. Soon he will be between my legs, fulfilling My needs with no thoughts of his own. Soon I will penetrate him with my strap-on and hear him cry out as I take him. Soon he will beg for mercy knowing it will not come. Soon.

Not Your Typical Foreplay!

I love a good spanking, but sometimes it is more fun to punish and torment j in more creative ways. Several days ago he requested to use my electric razor because he forgot to buy shaving cream. I allowed him to use it, but made a mental note to take advantage of the situation later.

I walked into the bedroom to find j facing his dresser, sorting out some clothes. I came up behind him, reached around and hit him in the balls. He yelped in a combination of shock and pain. I hit him again and then pushed him backwards onto the bed. Climbing on top of his body, I kissed him passionately, pressing my knee firmly up against his groin as I gently bit his bottom lip. A few minutes of passionate kissing left us both aroused and wanting more.

"Your face is a mess," I admonished him. "My razor is not a good substitute. I can't have you going around looking like this." I reached for the tweezers I left on the bedside table and began pinching them near his face, teasing him. One by one, I used the tweezers to yank the hairs out of his face. Sometimes he just flinched a bit, but other times he yelped and rubbed his face. After tackling stray whiskers, I thinned out his eyebrows.

As I continued to torture him, I felt myself becoming more aroused and knew I needed to take him. I ordered him to undress, quickly removed my pants and, still wearing my shirt, rode him. I grabbed onto the headboard to give myself extra leverage and rode him hard and fast, forcing him deeper into my body. As turned on as I was from teasing him, it didn't take long for me to climax. And, feeling generous, I let him cum as well. What a lucky boy he is!

Domme On Top Is The Best!

j and I have a history of trying all sorts of different sexual positions. There are times we will have sex porno-style, changing positions often, but it seems no matter how we may start I always end up on top. Appropriate, I know!

My favorite position is me squatting on top of j as he lays on his back. Sometimes I have him tied to the bedposts, and other times I allow him to be free. I like that I can tease him- ever so slowly lowering myself down until I am just barely touching his cock before lifting up again. This gives me a far greater level of control. I can ride him hard and fast and then lift up completely, or I can take my time, giggling as he humps the air desperate for my touch. This position allows me to use my hands as well, rubbing and tapping my clit. The position requires strong leg muscles, as the thighs do all the work. Essentially I get my workout with an orgasm!

Sometimes I prefer to ride him in the standard fashion. This position is great because it allows for more intimacy. Our bodies are close, and I can grind my pelvis around. I like to press my clit up against his pubic bone as I grind my hips from side to side. I can lean forward and bite his nipples (I so love hearing him help), or lean backward and rub myself.

On occasion I like sitting on j's lap and riding him in that manner. It ends up as more of a rocking motion, and the stimulation is not as intense for either of us. Still, we are physically very close. With his arms wrapped around me, I like to lean over and talk dirty to him, telling him how lucky he is to have such a wonderful Domme that allows his cock inside her. And you know what? It's true!

After Thousands of Orgasms, May It Rest In Peace

Long-time readers of my blog know how much I love my Hitachi Magic Wand. It has inspired posts, including My Scepter Is A Hitachi Magic Wand and has been mentioned in many more. Sadly, after years of use and many orgasms, I believe it has died.

It started making loud noises a few days ago, and today the motor seems to have finally given out. I'm contemplating giving it an actual funeral as it has served me well! I have quite a few vibrators, and of course the services of j, but none are quite as sublime as the Wand.

I will, of course, be getting another. There simply is no alternative!

Real Life Femdom

j and I lead what I believe is about as close to 24/7 D/s as a married couple, each with their own career, can lead. My control is a constant in our marriage, but sometimes real life gets in the way.

What do I mean by real life? Sometimes vanilla problems interfere with D/s bliss. A recent example of this was a nasty allergy attack (or cold - I'm still not certain which it was). I barely felt like getting out of bed, much less making decisions or Dominating j in any way. The only thing I wanted to do was curl up, sleep and maybe read.

In the past, I would have tried to maintain my Dominant role. I would have been bitchy and nasty, and refused to admit that I was sick and vulnerable. It really does require quite a bit of energy and focus to be Dominant. Don't get me wrong; I love every minute of it, but making every decision for the household can take a lot out of someone.

The problem with always being Dominant is it is tough to relinquish control to others. What I have learned, over time, is that a good Domme knows when to hand over the reigns temporarily. And a good submissive can carry on, continue to serve and be ready to submit again when that time comes.

Aural Sex

I admit it, I'm a moaner. More accurately, I am a moaner, a screamer and a dirty-talker. I like my sex LOUD. Whether the intimacy is snuggling, making love, or incredibly erotic D/s play, I constantly make some sort of noise. I can't even kiss without moaning!

I love to talk dirty. I suppose this contradicts my behavior in public, and maybe that is what makes it so erotic. I like being in control, and talking dirty allows me to direct my pleasure just the way I want it.

"Put your head between my legs and lick my pussy. I want to feel your tongue lapping at my clit." "Yeah, you're my bitch. I know you will do anything for me"... followed, of course, by taunts about all the various things I could make him do. All this excites me (and my submissive) even more, making the moment of climax utterly intense.

Edging During Masturbation

Someone posted a comment on my last blog entry, asking why a Domme who can have multiple orgasms would choose to edge herself during masturbation. As happens so often when I start to respond to someone's question, it becomes a post unto itself.

I am capable of having quite a few orgasms in any given day. My orgasms, however, differ quite a bit in intensity and where I feel them. For example, I can bring myself to a quick orgasm in just a couple minutes through rubbing or tapping my clit. These orgasms are generally not very intense, but satisfy my needs if I only have a few minutes.

On other other hand, I can (and often do) edge myself during masturbation. Riding that orgasmic precipice for quite some time is both mentally and sexually arousing. I love that I have full control over my orgasm, and when I ultimately do climax this way the orgasms are forceful and extreme. Even as I am on the edge, though, I am feeling intense pleasure that goes beyond just a build-up of sexual tension. My muscles lock, I moan, I feel waves of pleasure emanating through not just my pelvis but my entire body. The orgasm that follows is concentrated, but ultimately is just the icing on the cake.

I hope this helps answer your question!