Yowzah!!

I was blessed today with some alone time with j. I decided to play with our Rimba electrosex unit a bit. I really like the feeling of control that it gives me, and it excites me to be able to straddle the line that separates pleasure from pain. By turning the knobs on the unit, I take j to a level of pleasure that is almost unfathomable- and then by turning them just a bit more his pleasure turns to pain.

But for today, it was all about pleasure for j- well, at least for a while!

With the electrodes strapped around his cock, I began turning the knobs on the Rimba. As the sensations overcame his body, he began to purr in pleasure. I sat between his outstretched legs and rubbed his asshole, slowly inserting my finger and applying pressure to his prostate. I then turned the Rimba up, very slowly, teasing him with the control I had over his body.

As I got closer to that extreme pleasure/pain threshold, his moans went from sporadic outburts to a continuous groan of pleasure. His hips lifted off the bed, and he asked me if I would allow him to cum. I allowed him, and his orgasm was extremely powerful.

Of course, I wasn't quite done with him yet! I got out my Wartenburg pinwheel and began scrolling it over his body. I ran it over his legs, his cock and balls, his stomach, chest and nipples. he kept jumping and yelping, reminding me of the little bitch that he is. Honestly, it is not that painful- more of a prickling/tickling sensation, but it makes him jump and I think he is afraid that I have the power to hurt him.

After coming down from his high, he gave me three very strong orgasms. I think he was surprised, when I allowed him to touch me, by how wet I was. I really do get off having control over his body, having the power to grant or deny him an orgasm at my whim.

A Little CBT Fun

Last night I decided to have some CBT fun. It had been a while since I had been able to tease and torture j's cock and balls. I had told j to stroke his cock several times during the day at work, but not have an orgasm. I knew that this would greatly heighten his desire and sensitivity.

When we got in bed, I began kissing him, rubbing my body up against him. Within moments he was hard, and I smacked his balls with some force. he jumped, but then went back to moaning as I stroked his cock a bit. I alternated between smacking his balls and stroking him, and then went to our toy cabinet and retrieved a handful of clothespins, his cock ring and my rubber whip. I had him put his cock ring on (which was quite a feat, considering his cock and balls were already quite engorged.

Once his cock ring was on, I swatted his cock, balls and thighs several times with the rubber whip. The whip looks quite menacing, but produces a mild to moderate sting. That sensation, though, is most definitely heightened on his swollen and sensitive cock and balls! he squirmed about on the bed, moaning from the sensations I was giving him.

Again I stroked his cock and rubbed his balls. his cock felt harder than ever before. I told him that I wanted to allow him some pleasure as a reward for his hard work lately, but that I needed to give him some more pain first. I took the clothespins and put them on his scrotum. After I put them on, I wiggled them around a bit, pulling them and moving them about. I swatted him several more times with the rubber whip, and then began to stroke his cock. he was desperate for an orgasm, and I graciously allowed him one. his cum shot all over my hand and his stomach.

While I enjoy extended periods of orgasmic denial for j from time to time, I also like giving him orgasms. I like having the complete control of his body- making him earn the orgasm by pleasing me. When he finally earns it, I make sure he enjoys it, but only on my terms!

he May Be Little, but I Love him

I regrouped after I posted my message yesterday, and today I am feeling much better. I am happy to say that I woke up this morning feeling recharged, happy, and most importantly- Dominant! (insert sexy growl here!!) I spent some time catching up on all the great blogs I follow. Reading them always fills me with ideas of things to try with j.

A few days ago I was writing about our evening the night before, retelling how I used a double-ended dildo in both j and myself. It was a particularly intense night for both of us, and when recounting it I forgot something that was quite significant. During the height of passion I had teased j quite intensely about how the double-ended dildo gave me a nice, long cock to fill myself with, rather than his little one. While j has never been much for humiliation, my teasing and taunting him really sent us both over the edge.

j came home to join me for lunch today, and I sent him back to work with a little assignment. He is to masturbate almost to the point of orgasm three times this afternoon. That should leave his balls aching by the time he gets home. I have a little cock and ball torture planned for tonight, and will be taking pictures to post for all to see. Maybe the weekend was a bust, but Monday night is shaping up to be terrific!

Anorgasmic Ejaculation

Anorgasmic ejaculation... the name sounds pretty clinical, but even less clinical than the other name for it, ejaculatory anhedonia. Basically, anorgasmic ejaculation is ejaculating without any feelings of release or pleasure. This is something that I discovered when playing with j a few months ago. I love teasing him, taking him right to the brink of orgasm, then waiting for him to calm down a bit before doing it again. Occasionally, when I do this with him, he will ejaculate without orgasm.

The whole thing is rather anti-climactic (pardon the pun!), with the semen leaking out of his penis with very little force. While it generally is the same amount of semen as when he has an orgasm, it takes at least thirty seconds to slowly leak out. j maintains an erection even after the ejaculation, and is left drained but without release.

The first time this happened, I was quite unhappy with j. I had not given him permission for release, and felt angry that he could not control his body. After reading more about anorgasmic ejaculation, it has become a goal of mine. I enjoy watching him cum, but I feel that an orgasm should be a rare treat for him. Now I can have my cake and eat it too!

Which brings me to Sunday morning... j and I were snuggling in bed, enjoying each other's bodies. I instructed him to go get me some rope. I laid him on his back and wrapped the rope several times around his scrotum and penis, pulling it taut, and then several more times around his penis alone, tying it off at the top. I teased him quite a bit this way, slapping his balls- occasionally quite hard. I rubbed the head of his penis, and alternated between using a vibrator on myself and touching it to his cock. It seemed that each time I allowed him a bit of stimulation he made it to the brink of orgasm in just a few seconds. After playing for a while in this way (and having a couple great orgasms myself), he ejaculated without orgasm. It was rather erotic, watching the cum drain from his penis, yet his body felt no release.

A final note- when I allow j to have an orgasm, he almost immediately becomes less attentive to my needs. When he ejaculates without orgasm, he is even more attentive. It seems it is the ultimate tease and denial- so close that his biological functions took over, with no pleasure for him!

Bound for My Pleasure

I have been feeling turned on lately, and my preoccupation with my sexy sub has been running rampant. Since we have children, time for extended sexual play is almost exclusively late in the evening. Yesterday was no exception, however throughout the day I had managed to tease him for a few minutes here and there. He has been wearing my panties for quite some time now, and when he arrived home for an outing yesterday I had a pair of pantyhose waiting for him. He put them on under his jeans and commented later that they served as an excellent almost constant reminder of me.

As we retired to bed last night, my plans for an erotic evening came together. I instructed j to remove all of his clothing and lay down on the bed. As he did, I retrieved rope and scissors. I had him lay flat on his back with his legs together. I wrapped the rope several times around his ankles and then between his feet several times before tying it off. Then I took another length of rope and encircled his cock and balls several times, pulling it very tight. This rope I then attached to the rope between his ankles, pulling until his ankles were pulled up near his body and his cock and balls had a constant feeling of being tugged. Finally I had him put his wrists together on his belly and tied them up in a manner similar to his ankles. I tied his secured wrists to his ankles. Satisfied that he was not going anywhere, and enjoying both my beautiful bondage and his erection, I moved on.

I attached a clothespin to each nipple, taunting and teasing him as I did. Then I attached four clothespins to his scrotum, giving each a tug so that I could hear him moan. (As a side note, one of my favorite parts of tying up his nether regions is the extra sensitivity it brings. He was intensely aroused despite the pain.) I teased him for a few minutes, lightly stroking his cock and running my fingers over his body. At some point I took pity on him and removed the clothespins from his nipples, but the ones on his scrotum remained. I took several pictures of j like this, which he may share on his blog. He began to moan from the pain being caused by the clothespins, so I removed them as well, but not before giving each one a quick tug.

Seeing j like that was making me wet and incredibly aroused. I laid on the bed opposite him, so that he could watch me masturbate. It worked out well since I had a great view of my handiwork. I moaned and thrashed about on the bed and reached a nice orgasm. j seemed desperate for some attention on his cock, and since his hands were pulled down near his cock I told him he could stroke his cock but could only use one finger. I giggled as I watching him struggle to figure out which finger would provide the most intensity, finally settling on his pinkie finger. He rubbed it up and down on his cock as best he could (which was not very well, since he was tied tightly). Still, he was so aroused from watching me play with my pussy and climax and being tied up that it was not long before he asked if he could cum. I denied his request, but told him to continue rubbing his cock with his finger. After some time I decided to cut the ties between his cock and ankles and wrists and ankles. His genitals, wrists and ankles were all still securely and tightly bound, just not to each other.

j was desperate for an orgasm, but I wanted to know just how desperate he was. I instructed him to turn over onto his stomach, which was not an easy task considering his bonds, but after some flopping he succeeded. I told him that if he wanted to cum tonight, he would have to hump the bed to reach his orgasm. He expressed doubt that he could get off this way, but desire and arousal led him to try. It was one of the sexiest things I have ever seen: j, with his wrists secured and extended above him and his ankles secured as well, with his ass going up in the air over and over again as he desperately humped the bed. The show was too much for me, and it was not long before I was having another orgasm as I watched him. This provided even more fuel for his fire, since I moan loudly when I cum. He was humping the bed vigorously at this point and I heard him breathlessly ask if he could cum. Feeling that he had earned this one, I allowed him to cum all over the bed (and himself).

It was a very intense experience, and I continue to be impressed by the levels of desire and arousal j can reach.

Mistress Loves Some CBT

As I have written before, it is often hard to find time for the sexual aspects of D/s with kids in the house. It is important to j and me to keep this part of our lives private from our children. While they do see j deferring to me to make decisions, doing my nails, etc, they view this as him admiring and loving me. I like to take advantage of the brief moments we have when the kids are otherwise occupied.

Over the past few days I have been introducing brief moments of CBT (cock and ball torture) whenever possible. It turns me on, and keeps j on his toes. If we are sitting on the couch, massaging my feet, I have jammed my heels into his balls. I love watching him squirm, trying to hold his legs together to protect himself. Whenever he does this, I order him to open his legs so I can have access to his cock and balls.

The other day I had a few moments alone in the bedroom with him. I ordered him to lock the door and pull down his pants. he stood before me and I began to attach clothespins to his scrotum. Periodically I would tug and pull on the clothespins as he squirmed. Once I had quite a few clothespins attached, I told him to look at himself and teased him, telling him that he looked like a peacock (he really did!). I slapped his balls several times, and he gasped in pain. Then I began to pull the clothespins off, one by one. I know from our experiences in the past that this is the most painful part for him. I became so aroused as I watched him squirm. Throughout this time he maintained at least a partial erection, and his moans clearly were more of pleasure than of pain.

While sometimes our moments of intimacy are few and far between, we make the most of them!

Strap-On Fun

It always amazes me how the mind can replay especially intense moments, over and over and over with almost perfect clarity. That is what my mind is doing right now. Last night was a particularly erotic night for sh and I. I began the day by warning him that I would be taking him with my strap on. Whenever possible, I teased sh with little tidbits of what was to come (cum?).

I was sure to reach over and grope my boy several times during the day. I wanted him to know that I was aroused and thinking about what I had planned for him. Like a good sub, he shaved completely without me asking, as he knows I prefer him hairless. I waited and took my shower later in the evening, also shaving completely. I spent a few moments preparing the bedroom - lighting a candle and turning off the lights, turning on some music, and getting some toys out of my cabinet. Because I had not taken him with my strap-on in a while, I knew that I would need to ease him in to the size of my dildo. As I put on my strap-on, I immediately began to get wet. I stood alone in the bedroom, stroking it and anticipating taking him. After catching my breath, I went to the living room to retrieve him. I told him to undress completely, and put his Aneros in (a toy that stimulates the prostate). I smiled as he squirmed about, trying to find a position in which to insert the toy. I then took my leash and attached it to his collar, telling him to crawl on the floor behind me to the bedroom.

Once in the bedroom, I instructed sh to suck my cock. He sucked it with an intensity that I have rarely seen, and I felt my pussy get even wetter. This dildo is of average to slightly large size, so I was pleased to see him get much of it in his mouth. After allowing him this pleasure, I instructed him to get on the bed and put his hands over his head. I strapped him to the bed. I generally like having sh immobile when I play with him. For a while I played with him, allowing him moments of pleasure when I would stroke, lick and even lightly suck his cock. Of course, for each moment of pleasure, I provided several moments of pain. I used my crop on his ass and balls, the Wartenburg pinwheel over his entire body, and (a new one for us) hot wax. The wax was especially exciting for me. I loved watching his body squirm and writhe as the hot wax hit him. I thought he was going to jump off the bed as it hit his cock!

Throughout this time, I occasionally reached down and moved the Aneros about in his ass. I could tell it was stimulating his prostate, as he moaned from the pressure I applied. Now the real fun was to begin! I retrieved from my cabinet a few more toys - a small dildo, a larger inflatable dildo, and some rope. I removed the Aneros and used the small dildo on him a bit. Like the bitch he is, sh complained that the plastic at the base of the dildo was irritating him. I responded by removing it and inserting the much larger inflatable dildo. While it was painful for him at times, he was very receptive to it, and I was pleased when I saw the entire dildo was in him. He gasped each time I pumped it up a bit. Now, with his ass completely stuffed, I began to toy with his cock and balls. I slapped them a bit, then took my rope and bound his cock and balls. I like to bind them tightly and watch as his cock becomes even harder, straining against the rope. With his cock bound, his arms suspended above him, and his stomach covered in dried wax, he truly was a sight. I took several pictures of him like this.

The highlight of the night was taking him with my strap-on. I removed the inflatable dildo, released his arms and instructed him to get on his hands and knees. Since he is significantly taller than I am, taking him this way is always a challenge, but for me it is worth pursuing as I love watching my cock thrust in and out of his ass. My juices flowed freely as I pounded his ass, in and out, with greater and greater intensity. Occasionally I reached around and stroked his cock a bit, still wrapped in rope. I came twice while fucking him, as the feeling and sight of my cock banging his ass was too much for me! Generous mistress that I am, I allowed him to cum as well. I instructed him to go wash up and then come back to bed.

Never one to be satisfied by just a couple of orgasms, I instructed my sub to lick my pussy. I wanted him to realize just how sopping wet I had become. He drank all of my juices, his face covered with them by the time he was done. I had several more orgasms, at one point my pussy quivering so long I did not feel like it would ever stop!

It was a powerful night, one that I hope to recreate again in the near future. I woke this morning feeling more dominant and already fantasizing about what I have in store for him next time!